Once, twice, thrice, again and again

Being accused of what I am not

Once, twice, thrice, again and again

Taking the blame of what I am not

Once, twice, thrice, again and again

like a sharp blade that sliced through

I'm not who You think I am

Please don't think You know me well

You Don't

What hurt most is not being accused

What hurt most is being accused by the person

that You think the person would know You well

Once, twice, thrice, again and again

You made me gave up explaining

You once said

Don't keep everything to yourself

Does that still matters, now?

The day you said I humiliated you

Accusation, who went through it more?

Humiliation, who went through it more?

Misunderstood, who went through it more?

You or Me?

I kept silence does not mean what you said is right

I kept silence does not mean what you said does not hurt

I kept silence does not mean I agree with you

It somehow just shows

Deep inside how much I treasure this

so-called Friendship

(that you might not put it in your eye)

That could make me tolerate for so long

That could make me forgive you for so many times

That could make me laugh and smile even it hurts inside

That could make me joke at what I'm not

That could make me allow you to accuse me

That could make me allow you to humiliate me

I could tolerate all these

because I understand

I understand that this Friendship

is not only between you and me

Love life. Love myself.

“I have learned now that while those who speak about one's miseries usually hurt, 

those who keep silence hurt more.”
― C.S. Lewis

Every word you said seems to be like a knife

that would stab through the heart

There's times you raise me up,

higher than a mountain

There's times you pushed me down,

deep down into a well with no way out

11/09/2012

Now, as I walk down the road.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it is there.

I pretend I don't see it.

 I can't believe I am in this same place.

 But it isn't my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

Five Short Chapters by Portia Nelson

I :
I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost. I am helpless. It isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.


II :
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I am in this same place. But it isn't my fault. It still takes a long time to get out.


III :
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I fall in...it's a habit...but my eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately.


IV :
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.

V :
I walk down a different street.

The 1 hour of silence

Speaks the truth

I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far

The picture is clear

I don't know since when I started to care

Acting like I dont care I didnt see I dont feel anything

but deep inside

it hurts

有些事 错过了就不可从来

For the first time in these 3weeks, I felt mentally exhausted

When You said I have not tried my best

When I've been working 7 days a week, an average of 17hours a day

Is that NOT enough?

Some people will not appreciate until they lose it

The thing called 

“The Best Love”, or “The One”

Doesn’t exist

Love is a feeling of moments

It will definitely changes over time and moods

If your so-called “Best Love” left you

please be patient and let time heals your wounds

Through time, your heart will come to peace and your pain will ease

Don’t over expect the beauty of Love

nor over exaggerate the pain when you lose it

  

讨厌那种等待的感觉

讨厌那种期待的感觉

讨厌那种失望的感觉

讨厌那种无奈的感觉

是我没有勇气面对

所以选择了逃避

One word of yours

Didn't realize it could hurt so much

Appreciation, respect

is what I need

他
做的一切
也許會讓你感動
也許會讓你心動

他
生活的一切
也許會讓你在乎
也許會讓你關心

愛一個人
不一定要在一起

喜歡一個人
不一定要擁有他

當越在乎 

它就更容易失控

堅強像謊言一樣

不過是一種偽裝

微笑像謊言一樣

是最起碼的假裝

什麼時候開始在乎
我不知道
什麼時候開始關心
我不知道
 什麼時候開始等待
我不知道
 什麼時候開始期待
我不知道
 什麼時候開始模糊 
我不知道
什麼時候

Since that incident

I changed

You changed

We changed

是不是每一個人

都像我一樣笨

心痛比快樂更真實

Sometimes you should learn how to
Let Go

Someone said if u feel like crying, 

Just look to the sky so that the tears wouldn't fall

I tried, but it wells up and relentlessly it rolls
You try so hard to create happiness,

But over 3 million seconds and counting it's more just emptiness

For many times you yell stop as though wanting to wake from a bad dream

Then you realize it isn't one and reality burns like a laser's gleam

 - well said

Jealousy is not a barometer by which the depth of love can be read

It merely records the degree of the lover's insecurity

- Margaret Mead

  

Sometimes

It's better not to know anything

Once you know, you can't pretend that you don't

and that's when you start telling lies, and drawing lines

between yourself and the people around you

It's not because you don't like them

It's not because you don't love them

It's not because you don't care for them

It's because you have to do what's best for all

It's because you cared so much you have to make choices

It's because you wanted to protect the one you like, you love

I've been asked before, 

how do you know what you're doing is the best?

I don't know I can't know

But

I'm trying to do so

Some people are selfish

They do things without considering the people around them

The pain that would bring to the people around them

The pain that would bring to the person that trusted them

Sometimes

You choose the other path

You choose the path that you thought it's the best for all

Then you found out

You hurt yourself more than you could

And no one will understand
And don't expect anyone to understand
Decisions, you made
Path, you choose
The person that understand the most

No one other than yourself

Moments, could be so short yet so precious

Time, might not wait for us but 

Memories, remained

Fear

All those happy moments I had

All those laughter I had

It somehow brings me fear

The fear to lose what I have now

29 May 2012

May comes to an end

Wishing my best work partner that supports me through all my ST times

- Mavis, Happy Birthday <3

Celebrated your birthday for 3 times =) Full of happy memories.

Wishing the stubborn guy that has been bringing a lot of laughter to us

- Christopher, Happy Birthday

Celebrated your birthday 2.5 times =) Hope you're happy.

Day 778

and you said those words

 

777 Days 

I ended up being someone selfish 

I ended up being a not understanding person 

I ended up being someone, I can't recognise 

I ended up hurting the person that cares for me

逃避

Untitled

I Need..... Someone Understanding..... Is that so hard?

回忆, 成长

一段路程的结束，就是另一段路程的开始

Looking back my private blogs dated since 2007,
realized, how much I've changed
realized, how much we've changed
realized, what I've forgotten
realized, there's words I dont understand
realized, how I've suffered during those days
realized, how time flies
realized, how you have been forgotten
realized, how I got defeated

All of us, hold all kinds of solitudes
instead of living with those solitudes held close to our chests,
somehow, someway, we should let it go
and then, we will find happiness, feel the happiness

Happiness, comes in various ways
Let go all the hatred, all the anger
Stop comparing, stop the jealousy
You'll realize,
Happiness has always been with you
covered by hatred, anger, jealousy

One Smile, One Laugh
Might not mean anything to you, but,
It might mean the whole world to another

The person that loves you, might not be the one you love
The person that you love, might not be the one that loves you

Life's not long enough for you to waste
Treasure the one that loves you,
and not the one that don't

Thank you, to all that loves me
as a family, as a friend, as a colleague,
as a special person


-= 幸福与快乐要自己去争取 =-

Untitled

Hurt

Sometimes,
you'll start to doubt especially when the person keep saying the words

"I don't feel like talking to you anymore"
"I don't want to see you anymore"
"Can you please leave me alone?"
"You're so noisy, You're so annoying"
"So? Is that my problem?"
"I don't want to know about you"
"None of my business why are you telling me"

Sometimes, I feel you're so close to me
Sometimes, I feel I don't even know you at all
Sometimes, I don't know what I am in your heart

I don't understand...Why do we have to argue every week?
I don't understand...Why is your heart full of hatred?
I don't understand...Why can't you let go certain things?
I don't understand...Why do you always have to mention the unhappy things?

Is it because I'm not understanding at all?
Is it because I'm really such a bad person?

Is that a..hint that I've been avoiding.......